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come. Give yourself up to the night, and you will rest indeed. Harm will not come to you, but a good you
cannot foreknow."
The sexton and I stood by the side of the couch, his wife, with the candle in her hand, at the foot of it.
Her eyes were full of light, but her face was again of a still whiteness; it was no longer radiant.
"Would they have me make of a charnel-house my bed-chamber?" I cried aloud. "I will not. I will lie
abroad on the heath; it cannot be colder there!"
"I have just told you that the dead are there also,
`Thick as autumnal leaves that strow the brooks
In Vallombrosa,'"
said the librarian.
"I will not," I cried again; and in the compassing dark, the two gleamed out like spectres that waited on
the dead; neither answered me; each stood still and sad, and looked at the other.
"Be of good comfort; we watch the flock of the great shepherd," said the sexton to his wife.
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Lilith -- THE CEMETERY -- chapter vii
Then he turned to me.
"Didst thou not find the air of the place pure and sweet when thou enteredst it?" he asked.
"Yes; but oh, so cold!" I answered.
"Then know," he returned, and his voice was stern, "that thou who callest thyself alive, hast brought into
this chamber the odours of death, and its air will not be wholesome for the sleepers until thou art gone
from it!"
They went farther into the great chamber, and I was left alone in the moonlight with the dead.
I turned to escape.
What a long way I found it back through the dead! At first I was too angry to be afraid, but as I grew
calm, the still shapes grew terrible. At last, with loud offence to the gracious silence, I ran, I fled wildly,
and, bursting out, flung-to the door behind me. It closed with an awful silence.
I stood in pitch-darkness. Feeling about me, I found a door, opened it, and was aware of the dim light of
a lamp. I stood in my library, with the handle of the masked door in my hand.
Had I come to myself out of a vision?--or lost myself by going back to one? Which was the real--what I
now saw, or what I had just ceased to see? Could both be real, interpenetrating yet unmingling?
I threw myself on a couch, and fell asleep.
In the library was one small window to the east, through which, at this time of the year, the first rays of
the sun shone upon a mirror whence they were reflected on the masked door: when I woke, there they
shone, and thither they drew my eyes. With the feeling that behind it must lie the boundless chamber I
had left by that door, I sprang to my feet, and opened it. The light, like an eager hound, shot before me
into the closet, and pounced upon the gilded edges of a large book.
"What idiot," I cried, "has put that book in the shelf the wrong way?"
But the gilded edges, reflecting the light a second time, flung it on a nest of drawers in a dark corner, and
I saw that one of them was half open.
"More meddling!" I cried, and went to close the drawer.
It contained old papers, and seemed more than full, for it would not close. Taking the topmost one out, I
perceived that it was in my father's writing and of some length. The words on which first my eyes fell, at
once made me eager to learn what it contained. I carried it to the library, sat down in one of the western
windows, and read what follows.
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Lilith -- MY FATHER'S MANUSCRIPT -- chapter viii
chapter viii
MY FATHER'S MANUSCRIPT
I AM filled with awe of what I have to write. The sun is shining golden above me; the sea
lies blue beneath his gaze; the same world sends its growing things up to the sun, and its
flying things into the air which I have breathed from my infancy; but I know the outspread
splendour a passing show, and that at any moment it may, like the drop-scene of a stage, be
lifted to reveal more wonderful things.
Shortly after my father's death, I was seated one morning in the library. I had been,
somewhat listlessly, regarding the portrait that hangs among the books, which I knew only
as that of a distant ancestor, and wishing I could learn something of its original. Then I had
taken a book from the shelves and begun to read.
Glancing up from it, I saw coming toward me--not between me and the door, but between
me and the portrait--a thin pale man in rusty black. He looked sharp and eager, and had a
notable nose, at once reminding me of a certain jug my sisters used to call Mr. Crow.
"Finding myself in your vicinity, Mr. Vane, I have given myself the pleasure of calling," he
said, in a peculiar but not disagreeable voice. "Your honoured grandfather treated me--I may
say it without presumption--as a friend, having known me from childhood as his father's
librarian."
It did not strike me at the time how old the man must be.
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